Thursday, May 10, 2012
Taking Control
Taking control. It sounds easy, right? I've been struggling with my weight since I turned 20, and it has gone nowhere but up. In the past 7 years I have gotten married, and had 2 children. On May 5th I turned 30. I'm tired of being fat and feeling frumpy. I want my husband to be proud of me, I want my kids to adore me. I want to be me. The old skinny me. I have a lot of food related demons that I have to overcome and I'm starting to realize what they are. I constantly sabotage every diet I am on and I'm tired of it. I know it's going to be hard, but it's also going to be worth it. My first goal is to get down to my wedding weight. I have 18 pounds to go. Being pregnant with my 2nd child, I got to my highest weight ever. I have since shed 33 pounds. I am fortunate that I don't gain a ton of weight when pregnant. With my first child, I gained 19 pounds and my second, I gained 26. I am on the right path, I just have to keep it up and stay motivated. I feel that writing this blog will hold me accountable, even if no one reads it! I will stay accountable to myself, and that is my main struggle. I am addicted to Pepsi. No joke. I used to go days just drinking Pepsi, no water, no juice, no nothing, just Pepsi. I have realized how bad that is for you, and I now limit myself to 1 Pepsi at most per day. If I do have one, it's usually with breakfast, it's like my coffee. I know it's awful but I'm struggling to give up that one soda! I like to eat. I like food. I like being full. I am going to work on giving up processed sugar, fast food, soda and learn portion control. I have tried Weight Watchers, I have tried counting calories, I have tried Atkins, the South Beach Diet and many, many others. I'm not ashamed to say that I have even tried diet pills. I have come to realize that there is no miracle pill or diet that will work for me, just plain old eating right and exercise. I am ready. I'm taking control.
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I will be your biggest cheerleader! Im so proud of your determination and motivation. I know you will succeed.
ReplyDeleteThanks buddy. Your support means the world to me! WE will succeed!!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! I have basically the same problems other than the Pepsi we can support each other! Just take it 1 day at a time!
ReplyDeleteLove you Rufus! Thanks for your support <3 We WILL do this and we're gonna be hot bitches in Vegas!
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