Weirdness

I am craving pasta. Just pasta, no sauce. Maybe with a little butter on it. OMG I could kill for a big bowl right now. Isn't that weird? I mean, I love pasta but I hadn't craved anything bad before I fell off the wagon last weekend. I just knew cupcakes were the devil. I didn't cave and ate chicken and salsa at lunch but I can't stop thinking about how delicious pasta is. UGH! Chicken is getting OLD. I literally started gagging when I was eating lunch. What am I going to do?! I've got a good 2-3 months of this diet left if I continue losing 1lb/day. If my weight loss slows down, who knows how long I'll have to do this for. I can't wait for Friday to roll around. Payday = grocery shopping...definitely getting some ham and ground beef so I can have some variety!  I'm praying to stay strong. My willpower needs a boost right now.  I'm off to look at pictures of skinny bitches, that should help!

4 in 4

YOU GUYS.  I weighed myself on Friday.  I was home with a sick baby and going a little crazy and hopped on the scale.  I was down 4 pounds in 4 days!  CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??  My diet is working!!  That was all the motivation I needed to get through the day :)  I fell off the wagon a little teensy bit after that and may or may not have had a few cupcakes to celebrate my babies first birthday.  All in all I could have done a hell of a lot worse.  I'm not proud I fell off the wagon but I am still super motivated to keep going and shed this weight.  I haven't weighed myself since then.  I'm really trying not to obsess about the number on the scale even though it is my ultimate goal to get that number way down.  I think for now I just need to focus on every bite that I'm putting in my mouth.

Day 4!

I'm still doing FABULOUS dahlings.  I'm not gonna lie though, the novelty is wearing off.  I feel bored with my current food options and currently the thought of eating ham and cream cheese ONE. MORE. TIME. makes me wanna vom dot com.  I am confident I can make it though, I just gotta figure out some other things to eat.  Chicken is getting pretty old too, not gonna lie.  Good thing I wanna be skinny way more than I love food.  I still haven't cheated.  I don't even have the urge.  Nothing really sounds good, I don't know if it's the diet working or that I've changed my mentality of food. Whatever the cause, I'm not complaining. 

Mmmm

Shredded chicken, salsa and avocado. My new fave!!

Day 3 and...

I'm loving it!  I'm doing so well with this diet.  I have only been tempted to cheat once and that was yesterday when I was super tired, but I didn't give in.  I am so proud of myself!!  I made a healthy chicken dish last night (low carb of course!) and Gentry wanted some pasta to go along with it.  Pasta is my #2 weakness.  I LOVE PASTA.  I wasn't even tempted to eat any of it!  I'm so proud of myself!!! :D  I think I'm off to a great start with this diet.  I haven't experienced the "carb flu" that I've read about, and after Day 3 you're supposed to feel great.  I hope I will have some (LOTS of) extra energy so I can stop relying on Spark and energy drinks.  I stopped by the store on my way to work this morning and picked up some ham and cream cheese.  It's not biscuits and gravy, but it'll do.  I think the extra protein I'm eating is helping to control my appetite and cravings.  I also put some chicken in the crock pot this morning so I can have shredded chicken and salsa for lunch.  I love salsa SO MUCH, I can eat it 24/7.  I am planning on shredding and freezing a bunch of chicken this weekend so I won't ever be unprepared for lunch again :)  On another note, I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for this weekend.  It's Hayden's 1st Birthday!  WOOHOOOO!  That means cupcakes galore.  Cupcakes are another weakness of mine, I loves them.  I haven't really been craving sweets, but when I do I satisfy my sweet tooth with sugar free jello or sugar free Popsicles.  I know that I can resist the temptation.  I've got this.  I constantly remind myself that this is how I'm going to RAPIDLY lose weight.  AAAHHHHH!  I'm so excited!!

Struggling...

I'm struggling guys.  BAD.  I need coffee, Pepsi, anything to get me going!  I'm so tired and I don't know why.  I blame Aunt Flow, she's such a bitch!  Why does she always show up when I start a new diet?  I guess her showing up is better than the alternative, YIKES!!  I'm going to make sure Chase brews a nice pot of coffee in the morning so I don't leave the house empty handed.  I've never drank black coffee before but I'm gonna give it a whirl.  I'm also going to make sure I'm prepared for breakfast and lunch!  I ended up going to Taco Bell for lunch.  Don't talk shit.  I did my research.  A crunchy taco has 12 carbs, it could have been worse.  Much worse!  I'm still under my 50g/day goal so I am confident I will be fine.  I have it in my head that the less carbs I eat, the faster I will lose weight, so I don't plan on doing that often (or ever again!) but it's nice to know I have a fast food option if I need it.  So far I'm staying strong and not giving into the temptation of caffeine.  I have a diet rootbeer and an FRS healthy energy drink.  The FRS drink is trippin me out.  It is like neon yellow and kinda milky.  It smells like vitamins too...I wish it was fizzy, I think that would make it more tolerable.  Pretty sure I won't be drinking one of these bad boys again!  Desperate times call for desperate measures though. 

Day 2

Day 2 and I'm feelin GOOD.  I didn't cheat at all yesterday!  NOT AT ALL.  The only time I struggled was last night after the kids went to bed and I was watching TV.  I don't know if it was boredom that hit or that I just wanted to eat out of habit.  I really really REALLY wanted oatmeal cookies (this is super random considering I hardly ever bake!) but I satisfied my sweet tooth with a sugar free Popsicle.  Or two.  I'm hungry this morning, I didn't think out my breakfast very well and didn't pick up any lunch meat at Safeway on my way to work.  Must do better tomorrow!  Thankfully I don't have any food in my desk so I'm not tempted to stray from my diet.  I weighed myself this morning purely out of curiosity and I'm down 2 pounds since yesterday.  Is that even possible?  Surely my scale must be off.  I sure hope not though!!  Hehe, I would definitely be ok with losing 2 lbs per day ;)

Carb free lunch

Shredded chicken with homemade salsa. Yummmmm :)

Day 1

I have been low carb for a little over 3 hours now.  HAHA.  I'm surviving though!  I would be carb free if I had checked the carb content of my Spark :/  It has 11g/serving so I haven't completely sabotaged myself though.  I'm shooting to consume 50g of carbs/day or lower.  This is going to be challenging but all I can think of is "RAPIDLY losing weight".  RAPID weight loss seems so amazing.  I'm so excited.  I could have results by the end of the month.  I could be significantly thinner by Thanksgiving.  I could have a HOT bod by Christmas!  Do you know what this does to my diet confidence?  I feel as though I have a will power I didn't know existed.  I know I sound ridiculous right now since it's the first morning of my diet but please understand that I feel differently about this!  I didn't sleep a wink last night (seriously, didn't doze off AT ALL) so my go-to remedy would be a nice big fat mocha with an extra shot to get me going.  I resisted that temptation and went for the Spark instead.  Also, it's really hard to come up with carb free breakfast alternatives since I'm allergic to eggs.  Oatmeal has carbs.  Cereal obviously has carbs.  Bagels are out.  My beloved jelly donuts are out.  Fruit is out due to the natural sugar content.  What am I to do?  I got frustrated grocery shopping yesterday so I gave up and thought I'd wing it this morning.  Not the best thinking on my part because I get lazy if I don't have a meal planned out and just get whatever sounds good.  I went to Safeway and got ham lunch meat.  I know it sounds weird, it's not your typical breakfast!  It feels weird to eat plain ol' ham for breakfast but I have visions of a bikini bod and dammit nothing is going to get in the way of making that vision a reality!!

2 Things.

I've learned 2 things today.
1. By going low carb, a lady lost 35 pounds in 30 days! This is totally inspiring to me.
2. Vodka has ZERO carbs.  I'M SOLD!!

Low Carb? Hmm...

I'm playing with the idea of a low carb diet.  I have heard countless stories of people doing Atkins and losing weight then gaining it all back.  I truly believe that once I have lost my weight I will be so happy that I will continue to work hard to maintain my weight loss. I'm researching the best/easiest way to have a successful low carb diet and am going to go grocery shopping and come up with a meal plan this weekend.  I'm excited to start this journey!  I'll keep you posted with my SUCCESS!!