Progress?

We're back from a wonderful week at the beach!  I pulled every muscle in my right quad going up and down to the beach, it was STEEP.  I thought I did some serious damage to my knee because it was super swollen and would pop every time I moved it!  I'm all healed up though and even went to the gym this morning!  I really feel like not stressing over every single thing I put in my mouth is making a difference.  In a way, I feel free.  Before when we would get a fruit tart at work (google them, DELISH) or go to a birthday party I would ALWAYS have a pity party because I wanted to eat the sweets!  I would eventually give in and totally overdo it to the point that I would feel sick about it.  Now I just think nah, I'm not hungry, I'll pass, knowing in the back of my head that if I want something sweet later I can have it.  I did weigh myself when we got home from the beach just to see if this way of thinking was completely sabotaging everything I'm trying to do and I'm so proud to say that I'm down 2 pounds.  2 pounds, and it doesn't even feel like I had to work for it!  I am so happy right now, not stressing over my diet is giving me more energy to focus on other things, like exercising!  It's way too hot to take the kids out walking right now, it's been in the 100's since Sunday, but I'm making more of an effort to get down on the floor and crawl around and play with them.  It feels good, they make me so happy <3

Tired.

Hi guys! Long time no post. I'm not gonna lie, I'm super frustrated with my progress (or lack there of).  I dropped all sugar for a week and lost .4 pounds. POINT FOUR! What the fuck?! I am so tired of focusing on the number on the scale. The one time I had successfully lost weight before, I didn't own a scale. I don't want to give up but when I am trying super hard and lose under a half pound it is SO frustrating and I have the urge to go to Taco Bell, Starbucks and get a big fat Pepsi. I think to get my head in the right place again I need to focus on eating right, exercising and NOT obsessing by the number on the scale. For now I'm going to stay away from the scale and judge my progress based on how my clothes fit. I also have found that if I have a good week and lose 2 or 3 pounds, I feel like I deserve a reward, which is usually food. Tomorrow we leave for the beach and I'm not going to stress about my diet while I'm there. I'm actually not going to stress about anything! When we return home, I'm going to make a big effort to get to the gym at least 3x per week, eat healthy and focus on ME.