I'm baaaaack!

Im back, bitches! I have been trying to stay on track this whole time but haven't really made any progress. I will do a catch up post tomorrow but just wanted to say hi! I was going to sign up for Weight Watchers but decided to try the itrackbites app instead. So far so good with that. I started today and went way over my points due to a farewell lunch at work for my boss but it's reassuring that I get extra points every week so I didn't completely sabotage myself. I start a new clean eating fb challenge group tomorrow. Ummm taking my measurements tonight was quite humbling. YIKES. 

Food Diary for 2-27-13

OMG OMG OMG

I weighed in after my workout tonight and I'm down FIVE POUNDS from last week!!!!! HOLLA! I must have been having a fat day yesterday ;)

The Liebster Award

I was nominated for a Liebster award thanks to my buddy Stephanie  over at DIE(T)ING to be a Skinny Bitch, you are so sweet to nominate me, I am honored! A Leibster Award is given to new or newish bloggers with under 200 followers.   In order for me to have a chance to win this award I have to complete a few tasks.  Unfortunately I don't follow many new blogs, I have a few faves that I check in on now and then but I don't make time to check new ones out. I know I'm immediately disqualified for not having 11 new bloggers to pass the award to but I still want to play along ;)

So here is a list of the rules:

• List 11 random facts about yourself.
• Answer the questions the tagger has set for you, then create 11 new questions for the bloggers you pass the award to.
• Choose 11 new bloggers to pass the award to and link them in your post.
• Go back to their page and tell them about the award.
• No tag backs!! 

 11 random facts about me:

1. I am pretty shy and reserved. I tend to observe people more than I socialize. If I make an effort to be your friend it means I really like you.  I'm trying to come out of my shell though.
2. I'm trying to convince my husband that when we move to the country I need 3 things for me to be completely happy: a screaming goat, a mini horse and an affenpinscher.  
3. I have 2 little princesses.  Gentry is 6 and Hayden is 17 months.
4. I want to live in Disney World. Hell, I'd even settle for Disneyland.
5. I love traveling.
6. I have a boxer named Tinkerbell and a siamese cat named Khloe Kardashian-Odom Hurst.
7. I have been married for a few weeks shy of 7 years.  Gentry was born a month before our first anniversary ;)
8. I am the pickiest eater on earth. I literally have to force myself to drink water and eat healthy.
9. I am SUPER stubborn.  Huh, Stephanie ;)
10. I love going to the movies.
11. I work as a technical assistant and love all things programming related. I am a computer nerd by day.

 
 Stephanie's questions to me:

1. What is your guilty pleasure ? Watching TV.  I love my TV.
2. What is your favorite activity? Does sleeping in count? No? Anything with my kids, they are the most amazing human beings EVER and everything they do is awesome. I feel like I don't spend nearly enough time with them as I should since I work full time so I truly cherish the time I do have with them.
3. What is the one goal your are striving to achieve more then anything? Getting fit and getting my 17 year old body back.  I miss that 6 pack and those nice legs and dammit they WILL be mine again.
4. What is your favorite blog to read ? DIE(T)ING to be a Skinny Bitch, of course, and The Bloggess
5. What are you most proud of accomplishing? My home life. I have 2 happy, healthy children; a happy husband; a home we own and we are soooo close to being debt free.
6. What is the most spontaneous thing you have ever done? Ummmm? I really can't think of anything. Most things I do are pretty well thought out. Probably buying our house. 
7. What silly thing do you do behind closed doors? SING! I like to crank the music up when I clean and make it fun. 
8. What is your all time favorite song? Always Be My Baby--Mariah Carey 
9. What is your idea of a perfect day? Sleeping in, not having to worry about cleaning, cooking or laundry, and being able to go out and do something fun for the day like take the kids to the park, then to the movies and shopping. 
10. What chore do you hate more than anything? Cleaning the toilet. Makes me gag. EVERY. TIME.
11. What is your favorite nail color? I really like french tip nails but I'm trying to be more of myself, I tend to want to blend in and not stand out, so I'm gonna say hot pink with sparkles.

Amen.

I totally needed this today. Thanks Stephie :)

Rant.

I'm physically and mentally drained.  I feel like I'm taking on WAY too much.  My everyday life of being a working mom and wife is busy enough, but I really want to focus on ME and get fit and healthy.  I'm not sure if it was the best time to do this but adding a food diary and exercising into my daily life is time consuming in itself.  I'm also working feverishly to pay off our debt so I can eventually be a stay at home mom if that is the path we decide to take.  I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions and I'm not able to do anything good enough.  Our bills are slowly getting paid off, we are down to 1 credit card that *should* be paid off within the next 6 months.  There are so many things that I need to do but just don't have the energy to do them.  I miss sitting on the couch after the kids go to bed and watching my trash TV.  That time is now filled with my workout and a quick shower before bed.  My 5am wake up call always comes way too early and it literally feels like I run for 12 straight hours until I walk in the door at 5pm.   I'm struggling to find a balance with this all before I have a breakdown.  Or eat a dozen donuts.  Whichever comes first.  I feel so much better watching what I eat and exercising but I'm not gonna lie.  The 1.6 pounds I lost last week is pretty discouraging.  I tried SO HARD to stay around my 1200 calorie goal and I stuck to my workouts and my reward is ONLY losing 1.6 pounds?  I guess it could be worse right?  I could have gained 1.6 pounds...I'm just tired and worn out and frustrated.  I will get past this, I always do, I just needed to write it out so I can move on.  End rant.

Food diary